Waiting ...
Spent half the day reading recaps and tips on the Yahoo FSOA Forum. Initially went to FSWE Forum to see if anyone had received response to QEP/PNQs. Found link to a schedule indicating that answers (i.e. invites to the OA) will probably go out in mid-June.
In two weeks.
I'm getting nervous. I tell myself not to be. But ... it doesn't help. I passed the FSOT, but wonder if I passed it well enough to qualify for an OA invite.
I guess I'll find out soon enough.
In the meantime, I'm finding it harder and harder not to think about last year's OA and what I could've done better -- and where I could be stronger.
Hence, the re-reading of recaps and Traveler's tips.
Also, indulged in reading blogs of the newly sworn in, including a blog by someone who was in my study group. Seeing her blog and her photos gives me hope. She's just a regular person, like me. Shy, introverted. Smart as a whip, gentle and kind and not pushy or aggressive. Someone who could, without being pushy or aggressive, assert herself during the OAs.
Nice.
I spend some time rearranging the elements on this blog page, changing the colors, an wondering, "Is this a waste of time?" What if I don't garner an invite to the OAs? What then? I glance at the Countdown widget, which now reads 89 days since I took the FSOT. I change the title to, "Long Road to Becoming an FSO." Suppose this "long road leads to nowhere?"
But suppose it doesn't?
Well, I know that if I don't get an invitation this time around, then I'll try again. I'll swallow my disappointment and re-register as soon as the system allows me to. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. And I won't think about last year and everything I did wrong. I'll think about next time and what I can do right.
No, I don't want to go down as one of those legendary candidates who tried five, six, seven times. But I don't want to give up. I've never been one for giving up.
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In two weeks.
I'm getting nervous. I tell myself not to be. But ... it doesn't help. I passed the FSOT, but wonder if I passed it well enough to qualify for an OA invite.
I guess I'll find out soon enough.
In the meantime, I'm finding it harder and harder not to think about last year's OA and what I could've done better -- and where I could be stronger.
Hence, the re-reading of recaps and Traveler's tips.
Also, indulged in reading blogs of the newly sworn in, including a blog by someone who was in my study group. Seeing her blog and her photos gives me hope. She's just a regular person, like me. Shy, introverted. Smart as a whip, gentle and kind and not pushy or aggressive. Someone who could, without being pushy or aggressive, assert herself during the OAs.
Nice.
I spend some time rearranging the elements on this blog page, changing the colors, an wondering, "Is this a waste of time?" What if I don't garner an invite to the OAs? What then? I glance at the Countdown widget, which now reads 89 days since I took the FSOT. I change the title to, "Long Road to Becoming an FSO." Suppose this "long road leads to nowhere?"
But suppose it doesn't?
Well, I know that if I don't get an invitation this time around, then I'll try again. I'll swallow my disappointment and re-register as soon as the system allows me to. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. And I won't think about last year and everything I did wrong. I'll think about next time and what I can do right.
No, I don't want to go down as one of those legendary candidates who tried five, six, seven times. But I don't want to give up. I've never been one for giving up.
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